Wednesday, 22 September 2010

Feeling kind of blue.....

It's been one of those days when you wish you had just stayed in bed. You know the kind where you want to pull the covers over your head and find that dream that made you feel so good....
How does a day that starts with such promise turn into one with sadness and anger.
I found myself for the first time ever in my life, wishing for a new career.... hating my job and wishing for a new life.....
I miss my Mom and I miss my sister, even though it has been a few years since they both died, my heart aches for them.
I am broken.....
Just wondering if anyone else feels like this or am I just crazy.

Can I pass "GO" and start again?

42 comments:

Mumsy said...

You are not crazy at all. I think everyone has times when they are blue. I am so sorry the day has not been a good one for you. Will remember you in my prayers and hope tomorrow is a much better day for you. Hugs

Brynwood Needleworks said...

Hi Maggie:
Sorry you've had a rough day. Hope tomorrow looks up for you. You're not alone, you know. Hugs, my dear.
xoxo
Love,
Dee

Diane said...

We're all here for you,Maggie. These secret anniversaries of the heart (in your case your sister and your mother) get you down. Even if you don't remember, your heart does. Try to take good care of yourself and remember that sooner or later it will get better. Hugs, Diane

Cherrie said...

I think everyone has days like that. Just the other day I was so depressed all day long, I am so thankful it only lasted the one day. I pray that you are feeling a lot better now!

TinyBear said...

Not crazy and not alone.
Sending lots of thoughts and hugs your way Margaret.
xoxo Tina

Dorthe said...

Oh no, not crazy at all, Margaret,
I know those dayes ,too---also lost my sister 2 years ago, and feels terribly about it.
Hope your today ,will be not so blue.
Hugs,Dorthe

Castles Crowns and Cottages said...

Precious Margaret,

I KNOW THAT FEELING!!! I just posted on my writing blog about last week or so, my feelings. I didn't divulge many details, but sadness often strikes and my job and my own personality sometimes make me weep!!!!! I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE FEELING DEAREST!!! Let each day heal you....take time to look at what is good. This may sound trite, but there are no other alternatives other than to continue in this feeling. Thinking of you, Anita

Bertie said...

A normal reaction Margaret, probably experienced by lots of us and it will pass I am sure. Just hang in there:))
Hugs

Draffin Bears said...

Dear Margaret,

Sorry you are having a rough day dear friend.
Sending my love and hugs to you.
I am feeling the same, the 21st of September was a year ago that my dear old Dad passed away. It is hard when we miss the ones we love.
... and no it is quite normal to feel like this.
Yes, you can go pass and start again.

Hugs & blessings
Carolyn

Doreen said...

Margaret..I'm so sorry you are having a rough day. You are not crazy at all..we all have those days..just take some time for yourself and rest ...go directly past go and start fresh!

Hugs, DOreen

Paula said...

I can relate all to well Margaret.
Sometimes I think we need these days, just to make sure we don't take the good days for granted and to find our way, first we have to be lost.
Keep smiling sweetie...this too shall pass:)

Kathy @ Creative Home Expressions said...

When I have down days, Margaret, I try to do that "fake it till you make it" thought. I think of the happy things in my life and while it doesn't always work, I can say that it has. I've had changes this year that I think have thrown me for a loop {body wise~ quitting smoking, thyroid?, peri-menopause?}. I'm hoping my doctor can help me out with some answers when I see her, but otherwise, look to the good things.

female, I shit you not! said...

It's what makes us humans.
Nothing is wrong with you m/f.
Have had that ,pull the cover up over my head days myself. (((hugs)))

Margaret said...

We all go through those tough days. I'm sorry it was such a bad one for you. Hope you're feeling more positive next day.

Jennifer said...

Maggie - Whether you breathe in or reach out ... you feel. But you are never alone and it is so very natural to feel down, frustrated or isolated from time to time. I'm ending an 11 year marriage of abuse and I am having a lot of feelings. I am also surrounded by God, friends, family and trying new things. Blogging is an outlet too. Sometimes I think no one reads my posts but then I say "it's an outlet". How very beautiful that you can express yourself! Now I'm sending you a hug and an it's ok, will be ok. With Love, Jennifer

Marsha (Sassy Mini Dolls) said...

Dear Margaret, oh, YES, I have had those days, even as a child.

I hope today is a better day. Sending you a big ((HUG)) and if you ever need a shoulder, I am here!

xxoo
Marsha

Laura @ 52 FLEA said...

Keeping you in my prayers Margaret...better days are just around the corner! :)

Claudia said...

I have definitely had those days, Margaret - especially lately. Things will get better - know that.

xo
Claudia

MosaicMagpie said...

Certainly not crazy or the rest of us would be right there with you. I have days like this especially around Christmas. I am not sure why they come or how to get past those yucky days. But for sure they do pass.
Debbie

BALLET NEWS said...

I am so with your here. You are not crazy ! But unfortunately, we just have to accumulate experience and blunder on through the next day..... no clean slate for us !

Michelle Palmer said...

Loads of love and hugs~
Praying your day is off to a wonderful start...

Simple Pleasure said...

Dearest Margaret
I'm sorry to hear about your current low spirit...I find myself there more often than not...I cherish the upbeat times and try to multiple them...
I have a suggestion for you to try...following a surgery many years ago, a nurse suggested that upping my protein intake would not only aid a quicker recovery BUT also minimize any depression...something about the body being more intent on physical healing and "stealing" from your emotional bank...worth a try, as you are rebounding from major surgery!
Busy Hands...Happy Heart
Patricia

Robin said...

I sure hope you feel better. Try to take things one day at a time and perhaps things will look better tomorrow.

~CC Catherine said...

Aaahhh, Ms Sweet Margaret, Yes, some days are like that for me too. When I have those days...sometimes it just is time to have a good cry! When my dad passed away - 6 mos later I wasn't doing too great so my Dr suggested Grief therapy. I learned that crying for someone that we've lost is normal, and brings them closer to our hearts when we allow ourselves to grieve. Maybe it's just that you needed a day to have them near you in heart...and that's why all the blues. Know that it's normal to have days like this! And, thanks for being transparent and REAL to share your heart with us! Hugs friend! ~CC Catherine

Andrea said...

Yes...I do! Exhausted here, today!
Hugs,
andrea

My Blessed Serendipity Life said...

I am so sorry that you are feeling so sad. I'm praying that things will get better for you. Hugs to you!

-Danielle

annette said...

We all have days like this but tomorrow is another day and a new do over. Everyone gets down and feels blue at times and if they say they don't they lie. So treat yourself today with something that makes you happy and I promise it will be ok.

Ceekay- Thinkin of Home said...

Some days are just like that...my grandparents have been gone 30 plus years and I still miss them...I hope tomorrow is a better day for you!

sissie said...

We never know what sparks these sad feeling, but they do come and go. It's okay to feel bad and I have been there many times. I often think of my Mom and Dad and I miss them so.

I hope tomorrow brings sunshine and renewness for the things you can change and acceptance for the things you can't change.

hugs
Sissie

Lou Cinda @ Tattered Hydrangeas said...

Oh yes, I have these days....and I miss my mother so very much...it is like a physical pain....

I tell myself "this too shall pass, this too shall pass" and evenutally....it does...it's just not much fun until it is gone...

Keeping you in my prayers :)

Lou Cinda

Kai said...

I have those days, too. Not frequently because I fight it so hard. But sometimes it just grabs me by the shoulders & shakes me till my teeth rattle & my heart aches. I miss my sister, too, Margaret. It's been almost 10 years now since she crossed over (Lupus-related renal failure) and I STILL cry for her sometimes. So I UNDERSTAND. But it WILL get better. And we are here to listen & hug you even if it IS only blog-hugs.

Fete et Fleur said...

Dearest Margaret,

You are not alone. We are going through a very difficult time right now and I'm barely hanging in there some days. A big hug to you!

xoxo
Nancy

Michelle May said...

Hi sweets,
You just need to come to bunnyville for a getaway. We can sew together, have some tea, pet the bunnies and laugh ourselves silly!
It's ok to have a bad day, a bad week, a bad month. It's ok to hate our jobs. Just know that it will all work out. Focus on the things you want to happen, not on the things that are happening. Tell the story as you want it to be.
Love ya bunches,
shell

Denise said...

Oh girl..... I know...... I pulled the covers up over my head this morning and cried until my eyes were swollen and red...I too need a new day and a new life and a new vision.. I will pray for you tonight my friend......

Diane said...

Hi, Mags, Just checking back in hoping that you're feeling a little better today. Yesterday I was chatting with a couple gals. When we asked how one of them was she said "I feel like crying but I don't know what to cry about, I'd like to bite somebodie's head off but I don't know why, I just feel rotten!" We all sympathized - we knew just how she felt. Isn't it nice that women can understand how other's feel?! Just know that you're loved and very special and besides that you're really worth it. Hugs, Diane

Shirley said...

Hi Margaret, We all have days just like yours. We roll with the punches and manage to get through the day with the hopes and prayers that tomorrow will be a better day. You aren't crazy nor are you a lone. Major surgery does wierd things to you, I havenit forgot what I felt like after I had my surgery a lot a years ago. You take care and pick something that you would like to do, Hugs and Prayers, Your Missouri Friend.

jojo-caramel said...

You are not crazy at all. I am so sorry to read you are feeling sad. Big hugs Margaret

Monica@The White Bench said...

Just big hugs! Will email you when I find some quiet time very soon.
Monicax.

LiLi M. said...

I'm late here Margaret, hoping that those comments before me have cheered you up. Here it is quite common to feel depressed when autumn starts; the light changes, it get's colder and the leaves are falling which most people reminds of their own mortality. You are not alone! I do hope however that the sun is shining at your place and giving you some better thoughts about your work (or even better that your work has improved). I saved the best for the end: it is almost weekend! Enjoy!

...Miss...Maddie's... said...

Sometimes the daily doldrums of life weigh heavy on our hearts.
The weather you're having there with all the rain and cooler temperatures may be adding to your misery.
Just remember that those you have lost are always carried with you and their happy memories will help to overcome your sadness...
Susan

gail said...

There are days where things just seem to build up and missing loved ones is something that is always buried and does come to the surface. It's part of being human, I guess, and you are not alone. I think we need these days once in a while, maybe if it's only to make us realize how good the good days are!
hugs,
gail

Cathy said...

Sorry to say you are not crazy--just very normal. It might be easier to be crazy I think--we wouldn't know the difference then. I have lots of days like these and some good ones in between. Yes you can pass GO and start again and don't forget to pick up a handful of chocolate as you pass GO--it'll help immensely. Hope you have brighter days very soon.

Cathy ♥