I stopped in to a place that looked very nice and asked for help, but they just had small jars of "italkeepyagoin" and I soon ran out of steam. In effort to lighten my load I dropped some of the baggage and felt a little better but it didn't last long.
There are so many people out there that would rather take great pains to make a person feel sad and lonely instead of lending a hand to help someone who is stumbling and falling. I sometimes feel like I am flying by instrument alone, like there is a heavy fog and I can't see where I am going.
I really feel like I have lost my "muchness" and I was wondering what to do.
One day I tried to look at only pink things because pink makes me happy. Then I tried yellow because yellow is like sunshine and who can be lost or sad with the sun shining.
Each day I start with a list and then try to do one thing on the list. Soon I started leaving the lists or hiding them so I wouldn't have to read them. I have even tried to make myself do small things so at least I can keep moving. Has anyone ever felt like this?
Think happy thoughts, yes I know I am responsible for my own destiny and that I can look forward. Look on the bright side and the glass is half full.......
If you come across my "muchness", can you please bring it back to me? You will know it when you see it because it is always smiling and thinking positive. She is full of life and happy thoughts.........
If you have read this far, I thank you for letting me get this off my chest.
I am sure I will be out of this "funk" by the time I get back from work. There's nothing like a healthy dose of reality to shake the doldrums away.....