Tuesday, 6 April 2010

Must have the wrong map cause I am lost......

Somewhere along the way on my journey in life I lost my sense of direction.....maybe even turned around completely and started going backwards. I have tried hard to find the right path but because my luggage is so heavy it keeps me falling by the wayside. You know I can't ask the Dutchman for help, men don't stop and ask for directions....
I stopped in to a place that looked very nice and asked for help, but they just had small jars of "italkeepyagoin" and I soon ran out of steam. In effort to lighten my load I dropped some of the baggage and felt a little better but it didn't last long.
There are so many people out there that would rather take great pains to make a person feel sad and lonely instead of lending a hand to help someone who is stumbling and falling. I sometimes feel like I am flying by instrument alone, like there is a heavy fog and I can't see where I am going.
I really feel like I have lost my "muchness" and I was wondering what to do.
One day I tried to look at only pink things because pink makes me happy. Then I tried yellow because yellow is like sunshine and who can be lost or sad with the sun shining.
Each day I start with a list and then try to do one thing on the list. Soon I started leaving the lists or hiding them so I wouldn't have to read them. I have even tried to make myself do small things so at least I can keep moving. Has anyone ever felt like this?
Think happy thoughts, yes I know I am responsible for my own destiny and that I can look forward. Look on the bright side and the glass is half full.......
If you come across my "muchness", can you please bring it back to me? You will know it when you see it because it is always smiling and thinking positive. She is full of life and happy thoughts.........
If you have read this far, I thank you for letting me get this off my chest.
I am sure I will be out of this "funk" by the time I get back from work. There's nothing like a healthy dose of reality to shake the doldrums away.....
Hugs,
MB


38 comments:

Diva Kreszl said...

wow, you summed up my mood this morning perfectly, maybe there is something in the air???

Margaret said...

You have a beautiful way of expressing your blues. I hope they go away soon -- and that you encounter some nice people today. I definitely get to feeling that way sometimes. It's not fun. Feel better soon!

Brynwood Needleworks said...

Hi Margaret:
When people try to get me down, I remind myself that they can only do so if I allow it. No free rent in my head anymore. I find comfort in God's promises, and reaffirmations from my "go to" girlfriends and Handsome. I leave the rest behind. If I don't want it, I don't have to accept it.
Hope this helps, and that tomorrow finds you with a sunnier outlook, my friend.
Hugs,
Donna

ginger@bearbits said...

I will be thinking of you and hoping that this too shall pass.(Quickly, right?) Hang in there and here's something for you. I hope it shows up intact!
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Hugs,
~ginger

ginger@bearbits said...

Oh well, that didn't work too well. It was a bear hug!

cheers!

~ginger

Crowsnest Pass Primitive Folk Art said...

Pack up your troubles in your old kit-bag,And smile, smile, smile,
While you've a lucifer to light your fag,Smile, boys, that's the style.
What's the use of worrying?
It never was worth while, so Pack up your troubles in your old kit-bag,
And smile, smile, smile.

I hear ya Margaret & understand...been their more then a few times myself. Hugs Susan

ohiofarmgirl said...

"For I know the plans I have for you, Declares the Lord. Plans for prosper you and not to harm you, plans you give you a hope and a future"
Jeremiah 29:11
God knows what is going on in your life, and what you need to make you feel better, If you trust with your whole heart and give God all your baggage, there is no way God will ever fail you, He is the one to lean on, and be happy in when people make you sad.
I you want to read about the baggage I just released...I told about it yesterday on my blog yesterday....it would be easy to pick that backpack back up...but I am moving ahead...trying not to look back...praying for you, Dianntha

Kathy @ Creative Home Expressions said...

I get in these funks sometimes, Margaret! In fact, I wondered out loud to my hubby last night if I was starting peri-menopause because I was ready to go off on people yesterday. Nothing really gets me out of it, but myself, and I will. I know that a lot of it comes from a day job that I don't enjoy. Tonight will help because Tuesday evenings I work on some project or other and that always lifts me up.

BellaRosa said...

Margaret amor, I am so sorry that you are feeling blue at this time, we all go through that amor, some of us more more often and for longer time that others, I know I have been having this feeling much more often with the loss of my loved ones...I wish it was as easy as making yourself know what makes you feel better, doing it, and feeling wonderful, but sometimes you have to go with it and with the love and understanding of yourself and loved ones find yourself out of that darkness and into the sunshine...I hope when you find your "muchness" you tell me to get on home to me too, it is sorely missed :) Be well amor, know that so many love and care for you and if you have sunshine walk in it, look up and let the warmth of it, warm you from your face to your toes...amazing how much that can feel like it is healing you...I know, because lately when the sun is warm and shinning, I am that crazy neighbor you will see out in the yard, walking around, face to the sky, following the warmth of the sun :) Amor, you can email me anytime, and if you don't mind my grating voice...I am but a phone call away :) HUgs & Besos to you, Rose

La Table De Nana said...

You have had a lot of losses..

I think it is normal to feel them in different ways..I don't know what your baggage is.. I am afraid I cannot be f much help..
But I do find little children and kindness in people help soften the blues.

I think too..that if you have health..that helps to see the glass half full..I hope you have that.You look like you do:)
Your blog pleases so many ..I hope you take joy in that~And your nimble fingers....and music! And photos..and Spring:)

Take care.. Do you have a little plot to garden?I hope that too for you.

I am listening to Carly and You are my sunshine..I sing that song all the time to my grandsons..I change the word to :One of my sunshines..I sing it in my head with all my heart..

Andrea said...

Maybe you need a beautiful walk in them midst of creation...by a lake, river, pond, ocean...something refreshing to renew your spirit.
Hugs, andrea

Mayflower said...

Ohhh...dear Margaret, I hope so much that you are feeling much better at the moment. What a story, for so far I understand it. I can't give you advise but I have a quote (on my blog) and it says.....Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain, it's easy to say, but for me it works and believe me, my luggage is very heavy.
Happiness is one second who ever wants to be.

Warm regards, Mea

Janet's Creations said...

I am sorry you are down today, my friend. I am sending you a hug - I know it's not much - but it is heartfelt and loving.
~Janet

Diane said...

I'm so glad you felt that you could share this, Margaret. Sometimes I have wanted to share my sad feelings but I'm afraid to. You can find support and understanding with us. You are loved. Diane

Erna said...

Must be something in the air,oh sweettie I how I sometimes wish you lived here in Amsterdam or maybe I lived overthere so we could cry or laugh together .Sending you a big Dutch Cowy Hug ....
(Forgive me my English it simply isn't easy to express my feelings when I'm sad ...)
Huggggggggsssssss
Er

TinyBear said...

Oh Margaret - I know exactly how you feel. Sending you lots of thoughts and hugs.
xoxo Tina

Kimberly said...

Oh Margaret...you have just nestled in my heart and found the place I try to keep hidden from the world. You are not alone, sweet lady!

Hugs!
Kimberly

Sea Angels said...

I can send you lots of love and hugs, and magical wishes of Spring Sunshine and birds singing, and thoughts of French Macaroons all bright and crunchy, of thick hot chocolate topped with Marshmallows...I can whisper your name on a beautiful sunrise as the colours come pouring over the edge of the world....I can say I am thinking of you now right now, and wishing you only the very best.
Love and hugs to you Margaretxxxx
Lynn xxxx

Micki said...

Hope your mood perks up! Taking a walk outside amidst nature always makes me feel good.
Micki

Lisa said...

Yes sweetie I know what you mean. Something the other day reminded me of a time I was like this and I almost had an anxiety attack thinking about it. I do hope you get back to feeling yourself and Happy. We all need that. You are very loved and have lots to be happy for. I hope it comes back to you soon.
Big hugs, Lisa

Shirley said...

Oh Margaret, I am sending you a big hug and I know how you feel. My day was made when I came home and found I had won Franklin, I still am having a hard time believing it . I don't usually win and I so did want to win him because he is so cute. When I feel like you, I go play with my grandsons for awhile. I don't know if yours are close or not. Take care. Your Missouri Friend.

Chrissy said...

Oh I do know how you feel!! We all feel like that sometimes,it will pass,honest!!! All the best,Chrissy

Anne - Fiona and Twig said...

Hi Margaret,
I understand completely, and I can so relate.
I have no wise words of wisdom to offer, but what I DO have to offer are prayers.

Sending those to you in abundance this night.

Have a wonderful Wednesday,
Anne

Draffin Bears said...

Dear Margaret,

Sorry you are feeling like this,
and I hope it passes soon.
Sometimes when we share our sad days, the encouraging words we get from others can be a big help.
Sending you hugs and happiness sweet friend and may the coming days be brighter for you.

Hugs
Carolyn

MyLifesAStitch said...

:( Oh, I'm so sorry you're feeling a little lost. I hope it goes away soon!!

**'Muchness' being beamed your way my dear!!**

Jientje said...

Come here sweetie. Look at me, my arms are wide open. Put your head on my shoulder, this is a big hug for you. I hope you're feeling better now. Hugs xxx

Lori said...

Margaret, honestly...i could have written this post...maybe not as well...but i am feeling the same way right now...i am sorry you are feeling this way too...but, i feel a little less alone now...sometimes you feel like everyone else is happy, and you are the only one who is sad...i thought i only got this way during the winter..."winter blues"...and i am really disturbed that i am feeling like this now...hopefully, we will both be feeling better soon...speaking of pink, did you tell me that you wanted a pink puff...i will be listing some on monday...if you want one held, i would be happy to do so...just let me know:)

Grandma Yellow Hair said...

Aw Margaret you make me want to fly there and give you a big hug. I know this feeling your having because I could of wrote this myself but girl do like Donna says and don't let this happen. Turn to us and God and girlfriend hang on tight because with God and us holding on to you theres no way you can be sad. Smile! I love you and need you to be well
Maggie
Come down here for a few days and I will take off and take care of you

BALLET NEWS said...

I totally know how you feel. Guess it's just part of life eh ?

Michelle (Shell) May said...

Ok...that's it...pack your bags and come hang out in Bunnyville! We love you here, we're always glad to visit with you, and we think you are just down right fabulous in every single way.

Sometimes these best thing to do is let it all out, have a big cry, a "poo poo for me" party and then get to blogland. I always find comfort and escape from the world with my friends.

You're loved sweetness.
Hugs!
shell

Inspiration i vitt said...

Hey Margaret, so fun that you got the book now, hope it gives you much joy and inspiration.
Many hugs to you / Ingela.

Auntie Cake said...

I can so relate! I think I have lost a ton of everything at the moment, except all those unwanted pounds! I think I caught mono from my daughter, and I can't do anything but fight my eyelids. I need to comb through your wonderful yellow pictures in effort to wake me up.

Hope you had a wonderful Easter, and that you get your muchness back soon!
Take care,
Kate

LiLi M. said...

Hi Margaret,
Sorry to hear you feel like this, or hopefully you felt like this. At these times it is too bad that you don't live around the corner. Now I'm just making you a virtual coffee, give you a virtual hug, tell you that life sometimes is just like that. Life wouldn't be any fun if you were having all peaks, the valleys make you realize that there are peaks, no matter how much we hate them at the moment. Just give yourself some time.
Sending you positive vibes, believe me they work, but you just have to use them. Thinking of you, hugs LiLi

sepiadreams said...

This too shall pass....I have felt that way for the last 2 months or so. We are allowed to have down time so we can come back that much stronger! Hugzzz...Tiina...

Blissitydoodah said...

I'm late getting here!!!

LISTEN.
I have been more than going thru this and have discovered my childhood friend going thru it and we are asking ourselves WHAT???!!!! It helps to compare notes and talk and talk. And to know you are not alone. People who haven't experienced it just can't understand about it.
Email me anytime Margaret!
I heart you!

~*~ saskia ~*~ said...

Hi Margaret, just popped onto your lovely blog. These image are wonderful.... Off to read some of your past posts....

Have a great weekend!
Saskia

vvb32 reads said...

hugs

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jojo-caramel said...

You have a very poetic way to write things!!!
Picasso saw a period of his life in blue then in Pink and made an extraordinary life :)
I wish you to see things in Pink and Yellow very soon and send you a lot of sunshine ☼ ☼ ☼ ☼ ☼