Monday, 15 March 2010

Missing my Mom and Sister......

Mid March and into Spring is a bittersweet time for me..... my sister Karyn passed away seven years ago yesterday; March 14, 2002. My Mom passed away on Good Friday April 12, 2001. Both of them celebrated birthdays with me in March, my Mom on March 11 (2 days after mine) and Karyn's on March 19......... you can read my tribute to Karyn here and the one to my Mom here...... I miss them both so much and I am always floundering around this time...... even though I come from a family of ten children, the connection is fuzzy now and the contact is not really there.
My sister and I were very close, she was an artist, a teacher and my mentor... we did a lot of artistic creating together......
I saved this card.... it was from the last bouquet of flowers she gave me.......
Karyn and Mom......

Here is my Mom and my Baba.....
She was beautiful and kind.....



I am glad I kept this little note........
Another year slips by and yet it is just like yesterday........ all the memories in the world can't take the pain away...... I know that life goes on and time will ease the pain.
I also know in my heart there's this little piece missing........

40 comments:

Brynwood Needleworks said...

Nothing can fill the void. Nothing can take away the pain. Nothing can make you heal faster than in your own time. Just know that this friend is sending you a comforting long distance hug.

xoxo
Donna

DeeDee said...

What a lovely tribute to your mom and sister..I will hold a soft spot in my heart for you this time of year...gentle hugs my new blogland friend.

Erna said...

Oh Margaret my thoughts are with you.I know exactly how you feel I'm in the same position.Last week it was ten years ago my father died and it was also his birthday ( 4th march).Now I understand why I feel so restless lately.
Big, big hugs
Erna

Diane said...

How beautiful, isn't it funny how so many go on day to day taking the people in our lives for granite. Not ever thinking about how quickly they can be taken away!
I wish you many Happy thoughts this month, great memories of your times together. Hugs, Diane

LiLi M. said...

Hi Margareth, what a lovely tribute. Unfortunately I know exactly how you feel. At times like this I only wish my English was better, as it is hard to express my feelings on such a subject in another language. I just want to say that I will be thinking of you. I know that you will always feel a little amputated to say the least. Of course it is great that you have such fond memories and I hope that those prevail, but that doesn't keep the pain away. The feeling of never just hurts. Warm wishes from afar, LiLi

Jientje said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I guess the pain never goes away, but I do hope the rough edges of the pain will dissapear sometime in the future. You'll never forget them, I know. Hugs xxx

Bertie said...

The pain will never go away Margaret, but hopefully you will be able to celebrate their lives and look back on wonderful memories you must have had together, the pictures speak for themselves.
Much love.

Paula said...

aw Margaret, what a sweet tribute...love your pictures & cards:) I lost my mom 10 years ago and I think now what used to be pain has slowly become sweet memories...eventually you let yourself enjoy instead of mourn:)
hugs,
paula:)

Mayflower said...

Ohhh... my dear Margaret, (I write in Dutch so I can express myself better and maybe your husband can translate it for you)
Lieve Margaret, ik kan mij je verdriet over het verlies van je moeder en zus zo goed voorstellen, daar staat geen tijd voor en een ieder verwerkt zoiets in zijn eigen tempo en op zijn eigen manier, maar over gaat het nooit. Na het verlies van mijn dochter, nu bijna 15 jaar geleden, kan ik zeggen dat ik gelukkig ben, maar mijn leven kleurt met heel andere kleuren, niets wordt ooit weer zoals het was. En juist op de dagen van hun sterfdag en verjaardag en speciale dagen die je met hen zou willen delen is het gemis zo oneindig groot. Ik wens je veel sterkte deze dagen weer door te komen lieve meid. Met ongetwijfeld een traan, maar ook een glimlach om de mooie herinneringen. Wat een mooie foto's en wat herkenbaar de briefjes, ik heb het laatste krabbeltje van mijn dochter ook bewaard, wat is dat kostbaar hè.
Lieve groet, Mea

La Table De Nana said...

Your photos and cards say it all..your words just reinforce how much you care.
I feel the same way.
I think the more you love someone..the more you miss them.
L'Amour avec le Grand "A".


Take care~

Karyn Bernard (French Charming) said...

Hi Sweet Friend,

What a lovely tribute to your mom and sister. Having recently lost my dad I know the deep loss you are feeling my friend.

Sending you comforting hugs Margaret. My your fond memories bring you comfort.

The Spirit of Abundance said...

I'm sending you a BIG hug dear Margaret!!

Take care,
xNona

Lynn said...

My heart is with you Margaret, I am sorry you are hurting.
Love to you, Lynn

Margaret said...

I lost my mother over 20 years ago. I know how you feel -- you can never fill that mom sized hole in the world, nor the sister sized one. Hugs to you.

Lou Cinda said...

I know how you are feeling and that little piece of us that leaves after a loss like this, never fills back in. I think of it as a reminder every day of my mother and my father as I have lost them both...and miss them terribly!

Your tributes to your mother and sister as so beautiful! They made me cry...

I will say prayers for you at this tough time. My mom passed away March 1st 2005.

Much love to you...

Lou Cinda

Blissitydoodah said...

Ohhhhh I can't stand it....I'll be your new sister Margaret....!!!
Hugs!

Julie said...

What a beautiful and loving post. So glad I found you today--I'll be coming to visit often...

It's not always a bad thing to feel sad about those we've lost...remembering them keeps them close.

Hope your remembering day is beautiful...

Grandma Yellow Hair said...

Margaret honey I am so sorry for you. This is a lovely post for both your mom and sister. Their both beautiful and I can see you in both of them.
Know that we all love you and wish we were there to give you a big hug.
Hang in there girlfriend and I am just a email or call away..
Love ya
Maggie
PS

Love your music

Julie Ann said...

I'm so sorry, Margaret. Please know I'm thinking about you and sending prayers up for you. *Big Hugs*

Andrea said...

Beautiful tribute from a beautiful heart. You are such a sweetheart. Thank you for faithfully leaving sweet messages for me on arise 2 write.
Hugs, andrea

Diane said...

I'm sure as each year rolls around these anniversaries of your heart will always be there. Your mother and your sister will always be with you but going on without them has to be so painful. My prayers are with you, Margaret. Such lovely, lovely ladies and so are you. Blessings, Diane

Sara's Sweet Surprise said...

Margaret~I too know your pain. The losses are so unbearable at times. What has helped carry me past those hard moments...is the humorous memories of my loved ones.
When I think back on my father, I recall many funny events. Like the time he wanted to bake me a (box) cake, for my return home. We chatted while he stirred in some eggs, water and oil. He never followed instructions he always cooked off the cuff so surprises were common. When several minutes had passed we noticed the cake wasn't rising, but we were stumped as to why. So he went to read the instructions on the box, to see what possible important ingredient he may have forgotten... just to discover... it was a box of frosting not cake mix. He had grab the wrong box. He was baking a box of frosting!!That memory still makes me laugh out loud. I hope your sweet funny memories transform your tears of sadness to tears of laughter.

Sweet wishes,
Sara

BellaRosa said...

Margaret amor, What a beautiful post, I went and read your lovely tributes to your mama and sister...they are beauiful...I tried to comment yesterday, but I needed a moment to gather my thoughts, March 14th is a date that both our families share some saddness with, Along with your beautiful sisters anniversary, it is also my dads 1st anniversary of his passing...I think you actually mentioned that to me before, but in my fresh anguish at that time, I think I overlooked it, if that is the case, know it wasn't intentional. Missing the ones you love is never easy, time just makes it not hurt so much to remember, but the pain of missing them still hurts, my Ita has been gone now for 3 years this Jan, while I can think of her without falling apart...I still sometimes have to catch my breath when I see her pictures...I still can't bring myself to watch videos with her in them...I feel like I can't remember the sound of her voice or her laughter...but...I can remember the softness of her hands and the loving words she always had for me...what a blessing at times memories can be, don't you think :) I am sending you a huge hug amor, from so far away, I am thinking of you and wishing you smiles instead of tears when you think of your amores at are only here now in our thoughs and memories. Beso, Rose

Lisa said...

I am so sorry you have all this at one time of the year. At least it is becoming Spring and that can help you out. It is hard isn't it. My dad died after Christmas and his birthday is in January. So even after 30+ years it is still a hard time. I do hope you remember the lovely times and think about them most!
Hugs, Lisa

Celestial Charms said...

What a beautiful heartfelt tribute to your lovely mother and sister. I hope your memories of good times and influences bring about some peace at this difficult time of the year for you.
Maureen

Shirley said...

Margaret, I can relate to what you are going through only in the month of December. My mother passes away Dec. 18th and my dad on Christmas Day. The following year I went to get boxes for Christmas and there was my presents from the previous year. I still do not care for Christmas for that reason, but I know that I have to not let it show because of my three little boys. I try to remember all of the good things that we did, but you can still feel it. It gets a little easier as the time goes by, but it will never completely go away. I am sending you my hugs and prayers.
When something is bothering me, I usually go and play with the boys because it gives me something else to think about. Hugs Your Missouri Friend

Colleen said...

What a sweet, thoughtful and wonderful post. You are so lucky to have had them in your lives and clearly they left a mark on your heart. Hugs to you.

Auntie Cake said...

I keep little notes like you do also. A treasured reminder of your dear sister and mom. It is easy to see why March is a month with a lot of strings attached for you. They sound like wonderful women!
Kate

June said...

Your mom and sister are such lovely women Margaret. I'm sure you really do miss them and their love and companionship everyday of your life. I'm so glad that you would share a little of them with us, and my thoughts are with your dear, at this time of remembering and loneliness.
hugs

Lori Ann C. said...

Dear Margaret,
Do something very special for yourself in March as a remembrance to your mother and sister. Create a tradition that will help you look forward to their memory one day and soften the month of March.
My heart goes out to you dear.

Take care,
Lori Ann

Sherrie said...

I know how you are feeling. On March 15th (the Ides of March) it was the anniversary of my dad's passing away. I was only 13 when he died and feel sad that he missed out on knowing me as an adult, how I turned out. So a little kind thought for you today, just to help bring a smile to you.

Deb said...

Sending kind thoughts to you today! I know how hard it is losing a loved one. My brother died nine years ago February 20th. It's always hard when that day comes around.

Libbie said...

Oh my heart ached for you as I read about missing your mom & sister...I wished I could hug you but then we would both cry! Thank you for sharing them with all of us. The pictures are beautiful & I found myself just studying them & smiling. I hope today is a good day but it will be a hard month won't it. Sending hugs & love!!!

Jodie (everything vintage) said...

Oh Margaret, this was so beautiful of your Mom and your sister. I'm sorry this time of the year is tough for you, it must be hard for you to really enjoy your birthday. However, I didn't know your birthday was on the 9th...Happy Late Birthday. I do have it on my calendar now so that maybe next year, you'll smile when you know someone (ME) will be thinking of you...wishing you the best through this not so happy time of year.
Love you girl...these women were indeed so beautiful!!!!

Heather ~Pretty Petals said...

ohhh Margaret, what a beautfiul post. I love seeing the photos of these special ladies in your life. One thing I always wonder is, when we get to heaven will it seem like it was just a blink of time that we are seperated from our loved ones, but yet from here it feels like so long?

Wishing you peace this month and lots of love.
♥Heather

Cottage Cozy said...

My heart is full...you must miss them both so terribly!

vicki said...

Margaret,
We are just alike aren't we? Both of us with a piece of our soul missing. Your tribute to our Mother and sister is so lovely. My little Moses basket story is sort of the same thing. Thank you for stopping by and leaving your touching comment - it meant the world to me. It is never, ever the same without our Mother. I cannot even begin to imagine your grief without a dear sister also. My sisters are so precious to me.

Vicki

ps - Your grand daughter is totally beautiful. You are so very blessed!

Mona @ la la by mona said...

Your post really touched me and I just had to take a moment to cry. My mother passed away on March 27th just three years ago and not a day goes by that I don't think of her.

But, life with a husband and four kids goes on so I don't allow myself to break down often. I miss her so terribly much though that it catches up with me. I grew up crafting with her and so many things including those silly sewing pins that I still use are too precious to part with.

Big hugs to you Margaret.

Draffin Bears said...

Dear Margaret,

Your post is beautiful and how hard it is, to lose the ones we love so much.
My Father passed away in September and I still think every day about him.
I think we need to remember the happy memories we had, to help us through these difficult times.

Sending my love & hugs
Carolyn

Michelle (Shell) May said...

Hugs for your heart my friend. I know how hard it is. Thinking of you.
your friend,
shell