It’s coming up to the New Year 2010, and you know how hard this time of year is for me. This when I miss you the most, when my heart feels like someone is squeezing it too tight and I can’t breathe. I am sorry I always tell you this, it seems like the same thing every holiday.
I am sitting here, gazing at the tree and missing you the most. The tears fall and I try to ease the pain in my heart. I can feel your touch. I love to remember your soft skin and your rounded finger nails, your strong hands. Those hands that created so many things, that loved all your children, and that grew all those beautiful flowers.
The hand that I held when we crossed the street, even though it made you laugh with embarrassment because we were adults.
I try to be strong, and not miss you and Karen so much, but it is hard. This is the time of year I wish to be close to my family and now we hardly ever talk. Mom, your children are so busy with their own lives that there isn’t time for us to be together.
Maybe this year could be different, Dad is getting older, perhaps the family will want to get together for his sake.......
My New Year’s wish would be that peace could come to our family and we could all get along. Mom, I promise to try harder.
I miss you, I always will......
Love your youngest daughter,