Sunday, 27 December 2009

Letter To My Mom........


Dear Mom,

It’s coming up to the New Year 2010, and you know how hard this time of year is for me. This when I miss you the most, when my heart feels like someone is squeezing it too tight and I can’t breathe. I am sorry I always tell you this, it seems like the same thing every holiday.

I am sitting here, gazing at the tree and missing you the most. The tears fall and I try to ease the pain in my heart. I can feel your touch. I love to remember your soft skin and your rounded finger nails, your strong hands. Those hands that created so many things, that loved all your children, and that grew all those beautiful flowers.

The hand that I held when we crossed the street, even though it made you laugh with embarrassment because we were adults.

I try to be strong, and not miss you and Karen so much, but it is hard. This is the time of year I wish to be close to my family and now we hardly ever talk. Mom, your children are so busy with their own lives that there isn’t time for us to be together.

Maybe this year could be different, Dad is getting older, perhaps the family will want to get together for his sake.......

My New Year’s wish would be that peace could come to our family and we could all get along. Mom, I promise to try harder.

I miss you, I always will......

Love your youngest daughter,

Maggie






24 comments:

Совершенно летняя said...

Very touching.

Lisa said...

very heartfelt. your mom looked like she was a lovely lady.

June said...

My dear Margaret, what a beautiful letter to your mother. I know she is hearing your heart and holding you tight. She must have been so proud to have you as a daughter. sending you a big hug today.
June

Diane said...

Oh what a sad thought I am so grateful to still have my Mommy, I love her sooooooo.... much. I will make sure I don't take her being here at 80 yr for granted.
Hugs & Kisses, Diane

Grandma Yellow Hair said...

Oh you have brought the tears on this morning Maggie!
I am so sorry that you miss your mom so much the holidays are especially hard for missing our loved ones. Love this picture and strange how you can just see the lovely person she is by just looking at her photo.
I miss mine too and you are so sweet for writing this letter to her.
Your post reminds me of my situation this year with my family. I pray that we both find the new year to bring all of us back the way families are meant to be.
Email me when you feel like talking about it. The other Maggie

Marydon Ford said...

G'morn Margaret ~ Your letter to Mother mists my eyes. I talk to my Mother about these same feelings & thoughts every day but the Christmas season makes it even more difficult to endure her absence. My Mother died on Christmas Eve while we were in Mass, unexpectedly.

Your Mother is looking down on you with great pride.

Today my brother & I were just discussing these family issues in great length ... it is sad when there can be no 'gathering together' of the family ... may yours be able to join together once again ... ours never will.

Blessings to you, sweet lady ~
Happy New Year ~
Hugs, TTFN ~ Marydon

Lynn said...

Very sweet and sad.

Heleen said...

Very special and touching.

La Table De Nana said...

Oh me too the tears:(

I too lost my mom in December..36 yrs ago..I was 19..:(and our family was never the same.She was my best friend..I was the youngest of 3..the other 2 were boys..older...my dad passed away 6 months later.. The night of my wedding~
I am so grateful for my family...my daughters..their children and husbands.Little grandchildren make you love all over again...
I wish she could have known my daughters..~

Thinking of you..Thank goodness..there are many blessings in life after deep sorrows..
I bet our moms know how much they meant to us..She's in my head every single day of my life..as I know yours is~


We're not alone:)~I hope your family comes around for you..I truly do!

Andrea said...

Margaret,
I so understand this post. I am coming to realize all I can do is pray and be kind. I can not make others in my family do what they should...I can't make them love one another or even respect one another. I will pray with you about your family, too.
Blessings, andrea

Charlene said...

Margaret a BIG HUGGGGGGGGG to you sweet friend! How we love you so! Stay warm & go fix a cup of tea. Things will look better tomorrow. HUGS!
Charlene

Diane said...

Oh, Margaret, So sweet and sad. It doesn't seem to matter how long someone we loved so much is gone, it seems like forever and yet yesteday. May you find peace in the presence of her love. You're so special, thanks for sharing your beautiful letter with us.

Queenmothermamaw said...

Oh Margaret, I understand your missing your Mom. My mom's name was Margaret and so is mine. All our 6 children are home at Christmas but one. He lives in Texas and his wife will not travel. We have not see him for 12 years. He calls. We have a webcam and talk to him, but it is not the same. I think it is so unfair, but I just bear it and try to love them all the same way.
QMM

Then and Now at Collected Treasures said...

Margaret,
Thank you so much for sharing this beautiful heartfelt letter. You touched my heart and will be in my thoughts during this holiday season.
Love,
Carolyn

Faded Charm said...

Oh what a sweet letter to your mother. I hope everything works out for you and your family.

Thanks for your advice on the apothecary jars for my mantel. It's a great idea that I had thought about myself, but I don't really have any to use. Sounds like I need to go shopping.

Take care and many blessings to you in the New Year.

Kathleen

Paula said...

Margaret, such a beautiful letter. I hope and pray you find peace with your family, they are truly all we have when all is said and done. Praying for you:)
paula

Libbie said...

What a beautiful letter to your mother. I am so sorry your heart is hurting so much...I will pray right now & try to remember to keep you in my prayers. This was our first Christmas without my husband's brother, actually I just did a post about missing him...it sure is painful at Christmas isn't it. Sorry about your loss, I can tell you were very close & that she was just beautiful.

Lou Cinda said...

Margaret, I can so relate on so many levels to this post....I have lost both of my parents and miss them so terribly at the holidays! I put on the happy face and try to forge ahead, but it is hard....

Brothers who have gone their own way and we rarely ever talk...sad....my prayers for the New Year are the same as yours!

I will keep you in mine...

Lou Cinda :)

Michelle (Shell) May said...

So go ahead and make me cry! Dag...
Beautiful picture my friend. Ok.. back to tears.
binkies,
shell

Diva Kreszl said...

Sweet Margaret, I am so sorry to hear the pain in this post. Please know that I am sending prayers your way dear one! I too miss my Mother, and family relationships sometimes become strained, so much so that heartache is all we know. I am truly sorry for your sadness and am sending you a big warm hug!!!

Carole~Maynard Greenhouse said...

Sweet Margaret,
Such a lovely letter to your mother...I'm sure she knows you are doing your best. I wish you peace during this season!
xo,
Carole

Brynwood Needleworks said...

Dear Margaret:
What a lovely letter to your mum. I think I'll go call mine now.
Love you, friend,
Donna

Jientje said...

Heartaches and tears.I'm so sorry. I hope your wish comes true this year, dear Margaret. I know how you feel, I've been there once myself. The pain never went away, it only grew stronger until we did take that step to see each other again...

Draffin Bears said...

Dear Margaret,

Sending all my love and hugs.
I know what you are going through, as I feel the same way with my dear Dad.
My thoughts are with you.

Hugs
Carolyn